Sunday, September 24, 2006 @ 2:41 AM
Haix...my exams is round the corner...but i can still idle away...if i am trully stressed, afraid, want to do well, i shudnt be doin anyting of watchin tv or play game...instead i shud be working my butt off...study 24/7, well exclude the time for slp n baths...wads wrong wif mi??!!!!

can somebody help mi?!

have been escaping from the reality for 18yrs...its time i face up to the true n cruel world...but can i do it? am i ready to do it? seriously, i still cant get away frm my old self...the part of mi screaming to get away frm this world, the part of mi living in my own castle world, the part of mi not wanting to believe the bad things of the world, the part of mi not wanting to think, the part of mi wanting to be carefree, the part of mi just wanting to disappear frm the world..................
how do people face up to the reality man?!
how u realli grow up frm a kid to an adult...
nobody can help mi but myself....but do i wan to save mi?
y was i brought into this world?
y did i struggle as a 'tadpole' swim towards the 'egg'?
i still cant c the purpose of mi living in this world...to mi, people r born n people leave this world every day...y den do we live to die?
i used to believe that every person was brought into this world for a purpose...but...it seems dat there r juz people who live, study, work, start a family, n die leave this world...
wads the use of learnin so much things wen in the end, its to leave one day?


i believe dat people r good by nature...
is it realli so?
i've been bottling up my feelings, my thoughts, my emotions for years n years...
one day, will i explode?
in tv drama series, gd guys do not hav gd endings...
gd guys may turn into a bad guy one say too...
one day, wen u have had enuf of the nonsense n crap...tired of being used, being taken for granted...tired of everyting...den the explosion comes...
if there realli evil in every person?
y cant a person be 100%, totally angelic??
is the evilness of a gd person curb inside?
n den finally one day, it becomes so overwhelming dat u cant control it...
den u will turn into this person of totally no compassion, no feelings, maybe juz feel bitterness, hatered, evil...
isnt it a scary thing...
am i maybe juz liddat??
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a person hu's on the road to find herself.....
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Name: Vivian
Years of existence: 20
Preoccupied with:
day-dreaming
singing
listening to music
reading
eating
sleeping
shopping
studying?
star-gazing
She wana:
*Compose a complete piece of music on her own
Conquer her fears
Be Brave
Be Strong
Be Herself

Craves,Loves,Hates
HerLoves.

{Music
{Singing
{Dolphins
{Her frens and family
{eyeeorh
{eggs
{Chocolates
{DBSK
{Big Bang
{Luo Zhi Xiang
{The Night
{The Stars
{The Sunset
{The Beach
HerCraves/Hopes.

{BE HAPPY
{To be with him
{Drinks^_^
{Chocolates!
{To earn lots of money
{To get a diploma! (and hopefully a degree)
{To learn a foreign languange
{To learn sign-language
{To swim with the dolphins
{Travel round the world some day
{Have a good life with mi mom :)
{People around mi to be healthy and happy :)
{Celebrate a White Christmas
Her Wants.

{iPod Touch & MAC book
{Emporio Armani Silver Logo Charm Bracelet!!!
{BVLGARI : MONOLOGO band ring in 18kt pink gold with demi pavé diamonds. (:
{ASSIOMA D watch
{Colonize Hoodie (Hood Check CZ red) [OST!! $155 =.=]
{Banc Hoodie (total zip-up)
{Trip to taiwan with darlings! yr'09
{Trip to Korea'09/'10
{Tour Europe
{Coat
{New Boots
{A locket studded with crytals
HerHates.

{Onions, garlic...
{Back-stabers
{Hypocrites
{Liars
{Pests
{Slimy things
{Insects
Your loves, craves, hates here.

Melody.
Relax your soul.

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Jiro ♥
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Wu Zun ♥

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nicesmockedtubes♥
butik-gue♥
SugarCandy ♥
IcyLife ♥
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